Resolutions 1-3

Remember my resolution this year to do random acts of kindness? One every month? Well despite everything going on, I have been keeping it! I decided to update every 3 months so I don't bore you with a post on it every month :)

January: I was in the coffee drive through getting a tea, and a little pickup pulled up behind me. There was just a girl a younger boy, maybe Pumpkin's age, in it, so I told the lady that I would pay for their order. My total bill was just over $7, so that made their drinks right around $5.

February: This one might not seem that big, but it was something. I was in line at Target with a basket full of stuff, despite only going in for a couple things. There was only a couple lanes open, and they all were pretty busy. A lady got in the lane behind me and she didn't have very much stuff. I was not in any hurry so I let her go ahead of me.

March: I searched Indiegogo for a page that was almost out of time and donated to it. Actually, the page that I chose had some time on it, but not a whole lot, and it tugged my heartstrings. It is a baby girl thats goal isn't met, not really even close yet. Right now they are just shy of $3000, and their goal is $15,000. It would be awesome if you would go donate to them! Indiegogo is pretty cool cuz you can search all sorts of different topics and for fundraisers that are just about out of time and donate to them. Even if you don't decide to donate to this fund that I did, you should still check it out and donate to something!

If you made resolutions this year, how are they going?

Another Blow

2013 just couldn't leave us alone with all the shit it already dumped on us, it had to add something else. Our hot water heater went out.  Luckily it was the just the elements and M was able to fix them easily, but it did mean 3 days without water because of our busy schedule and him not being able to get to the store. We made do by boiling water on the stove and adding it to the cold bath water.

I have decided that I am not going to let this year get the best of me though. In my efforts to better it, and myself, I signed up for a Spartan Race! It is the Saturday before Mother's Day, so I have just shy of 2 months to get in shape for it! A couple of our friends are going to do it with me.  M said he would drink beer and watch :).

I'm really nervous because I have been having a lot of issues with my knee lately.  It hardly wants to bear my weight going up stairs. I think I will go in and have it looked at soon. I'm really hoping its nothing serious though and at maybe just a good brace will take care of the problem.

M and I are also looking at doing an addition on our house. We want to have more kids, hopefully, someday, so we figured we need the space and rates are good right now. We had a couple contractors come out and are waiting to hear their bids. We have an appointment with the bank set up to figure out which route is best to go.... Line of credit, construction loan, etc. I really hope it all works out!

Are you doing anything to better this year or yourself?

Insult To Injury

I started my period today. Dr K told me it could be April before I got it, but I nope, I got it today. Just another reminder that I am no longer pregnant. That my baby died.

I thought I would take it harder than I did, although I can't say I took it good. I'm hoping that its a quick one though because the site of it makes my heart drop. Its different than the bleeding after the D&C. This is reminding me that life is continuing and my body that betrayed my earlier is still chugging along, doing its own thing.

Maybe I should be happy that my body got back into rhythm so quickly, but I am still angry at it. Angry that my heart is still broken, my mind still remembers, and yet my body moves on. How can it when I am still so emotionally not ready?

Unlucky 13

I'm not a superstitious person, but why walk under a ladder when you can go around? So when 2013 was approaching, thoughts of it being an unlucky year passed through my head. For some, 13 is a lucky number, others it is not so much. Its not my favorite number, but I don't cringe when it falls on a Friday. I have to admit though, 2013 has proven to be unlucky for us so far.

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This isn't ment to be a pitty party for us, but we have been through a lot this year. It started... on the rough side with M and I fighting. Then we found out we were pregnant... mixed feelings, but this was actually the best thing and we got SUPER excited. Miss L got sick and was hospitalized for 9 days. I didn't work, so bills got tight and some overlooked. I lost BB3. I didn't work some more, and bills got even tighter and some calls had to be made. Our furnace went out on a Saturday. We spent the weekend with 1 electric heater for our whole house waiting until Monday so we wouldn't have to pay time and a half for a weekend call. Remember those bills getting over looked, well now we were trying to round up money for someone to fix our furnace. Luckily M's parents lent us the money and it got fixed Monday evening. Miss L, Pumpkin, and I got sick from being cold all weekend. I missed a little more work. Miss L's dr called and told us the levels of lead in her blood were elevated and we would have to do a repeat blood test. I got drunk.

Hasn't our family been handed enough already this year? I hate to complain, and I do know that there are people way worse off then us, but come on, there are tons that have it way easier too! We need a break. I don't know how much more we can handle. LUCKILY our taxes came in so we could pay my in-laws back for our furnace, and kind of catch up on those bills piling up. I am hoping that since this year has started so rough it might end a little better... In like a lion, out like a lamb...?

Has 2013 been a lucky or unlucky year for you so far?

1 Year

I cannot believe Miss L is already one. It seems like just yesterday we were at the hospital... Oh wait, we were! But for other reasons....

We had a small "party" for her. I am in the camp that first birthday parties are for parents, not for the kid, so we just had our family over. We invited her Godmother, and 3 of our best friends, but none of them were able to make it.

I did a "cute as a button" theme, and friend K made her invites. I spent a good part of my Friday before her party making fondant buttons to put on her (homemade) cake, and Saturday was spent grocery shopping and getting things ready. Yes, I actually pulled myself together enough to put on a party!

Sunday morning came, I got up early, made the cake, and preheated the oven to bake it. When I went to put the cake in I was greeted with smoke. On Friday, M told me he was putting the buttons in the oven so nothing got into them, and I forgot they were in there. When I preheated the oven, I baked my buttons. Its these little things that set me off lately. I was in hysterics, so M calmed me down and went across town to the store to buy more fondant, then sat at the table helping me make buttons the rest of the morning. Bless his heart.

Of course, the cakes turned out way better in my head, but I still think they were ok, and perfectly fine for our small family gathering.

Miss L loved rubbing her hands in the frosting and having her own cake to play in! She didn't enjoy opening presents as much as me, but she did help a little.

Ok, enough talk, here are some pictures!

I just printed them as 4x6 photos from Walgreens

A big one for us, a little one for her

What did you do for a first birthday?