Sorry I have been MIA. I have wanted to write, but just can't seem to get myself to do it. I have been in a major funk, but feel like I might be coming out of it now.
Holidays were awesome and busy and it was nice to have life return to normal after. I do miss my family, but it gets hectic trying to see everyone and do everything, especially with 3 kids.
I suffer from depression and have taken medication for it for about 10+ years now. My last Dr called it my vitamin :) I normally do really well and have no issues. I did get postpartum, but that happens. Right around LL's birthday though I got pretty depressed again. I have been having a really hard time with the fact that my BABY is ONE. ONE. NOT a baby anymore. It hit me hard, and put me in this weird depressed funk. I'm doing better though, but its still hard to think about and makes me sad that my kids are growing so fast.
We are weaning breastfeeding too, and that has been really hard to handle. I am not ready at all, but my mom and M both think it will make their lives easier as LL is super attached to me and gives them hell when I'm not around. I really cherish our nursing sessions though and it still makes me think of her as a baby and dependent on me, which I am just not ready to give up!
We had a family birthday for LL since my sisters and their families were all in town for Christmas. It was really fun and turned out great. I will give it its own post though :)
So sorry again for being so silent, I am going to try really hard to make myself blog even when I'm not feeling it. Even if its just to say hi.
Happy New Years everyone
