Getting To Feel

M got to feel Peanut kick today. She is still kicking pretty soft, but you can definitely feel her. I was really happy that he was able to feel her, since I have for awhile now. He was pretty excited too. It made our morning. :)

Half Way There

We are 20 wks now. It is so crazy to think that we are already half way through this pregnancy. WOW. The first half went so fast, I can't even imagine what this second half is going to be like, especially since there are a lot of things going on, such as Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas, birthdays, etc.

In celebration of 20 wks though, I figured I should post a "bump" pic. I feel like its still low, and that I still look fat, but none the less, here it is:

Pumpkin VS Peanut

I have been comparing my two pregnancies since the day I found out I was pregnant. Part of the reason was just to see how they are the same or different, and the other part was to see if I could figure out what I was having. Let me just say though, wow, these pregnancies are way different!

I was tired with Pumpkin right in the beginning, lifting at 12 weeks. I only threw up maybe 2 times, otherwise I felt great. My hair grew nice, my nails were strong, and even though I broke out really bad in the beginning, my acne ended up clearing up. My tummy got a little hairy (but I'm kind of just hairy as it is!), and other than some crazy mood swings in the beginning, my hormones were pretty well in check.

So say my pregnancy with Peanut is different would be an understatement! Even at 20 wks I still randomly get sick and will throw up or otherwise it goes out the other end. My hair is stringy, still falling out actually, and my nails haven't really been growing. I'm still breaking out major, like huge ones, under the skin and all over my body, back, belly, neck, face, etc. My tummy is so hairy, I ended up shaving it the other day. While the hair on my head isn't growing so great, I am making up for it on my legs and... other parts. And poor M. I have been one crazy pregnant lady! My emotion and hormones are all over the place, and so unpredictable.

I don't know if my pregnancies are so different because they say that every pregnancy is different. I also don't know if they are different because of the father. Or, they could simply be so different because Pumpkin is a boy, and Peanut is a girl. :)

Predictions

Since we are finding out what we are having (well, hopefully Peanut will cooperate with us!), I thought it would be fun to do some gender prediction tests to see if they are right!

I took 2 "Wive's Tales" quizzes, with similar results. One said 75% girl, and the other said 73% girl! I also did the "Ring Test" where you dangle your wedding ring over your belly (or wrist) with a strand of hair, and depending on its movement tells you whether you are having a boy or a girl. If it goes in a circle, you are having a girl, and if it goes side to side, its a boy. Mine CLEARLY went side to side, so that indicates we should be having a boy!

I think I would trust the "Ring Test" over the quizzes, but I'm not fully convinced. It is just a fun little gender prediction thing to do while I wait for our appt. I am so excited to find out!!!!

A Little Hiccup

Baby hiccups that is! I was woken up last night due to Peanut's hiccups! I forgot what a crazy fun feeling it is! I really wish M could feel Peanut moving around though.

I pretty much feel movements everyday now, but they are really low. They almost feel like they are in my crotch! OK, not quite that low, but still, they are low, not like they are in my "belly".

I've been feeling pretty self-conscious about the way I look. My belly is so low still, not the "bump" that most people experience. I think I still just look fat. It makes me pretty sad, especially considering that we are coming up on 20 wks, half way there. Maybe I will post a "belly pic" for the milestone, but I still don't feel cute, or that I look that pregnant. It might be because this is my second baby, but I wish a had that perfect high cute bump. :( Little pity-party just now, sorry.

Happy news is that in just 2 days we get to see Peanut again, and hopefully find out if Peanut will be dressing in blue or pink! I cannot wait!!!

Pregnant Colposcopy

I had my colposcopy today. It actually wasn't too bad. They try not to biopsy anything while you are pregnant, unless there are tons of places that need it. Lucky for me, there was only one bad spot, so Dr K let it be. She is going to keep her eye on it though, and do a biopsy once Peanut is born.

Exciting news though. We get to find out what we are having in 1 week!!! I can't wait!!!! I still have no idea. Some days I think boy, others I think girl. My sister D is hoping girl, but says she feels deep down that it is a boy. Papa (my dad) is hoping girl too, but thinks boy, and Nana (my mom) is thinking girl. M still wants a boy, but still insists its a girl. I'm just so anxious to find out!

Crying Myself a River

Everything has been making me cry, and I mean everything. A random song on the radio, a commercial, a video posted on FB... you get the idea. I hate being such a crybaby, but I can't help it! I am overly emotional lately.

I have also been feeling really unattractive. My "bump" is odd shaped, and really low. I look like a have a pouch. Plus, my stomach is hairy, I'm breaking out on my back, stomach, chest, and neck. My face is clearing up a little, but still, its everywhere else. I feel like I am fat, and ugly, and that makes me cry too.

Poor M has gotten the worst end of it all. I ask him if he loves me, if he thinks I'm pretty, if he likes to be around me. I feel so bad, but like I said, I am an emotional wreck lately. I really hope this stage goes by quickly, I don't know how much more of this I could handle (or M!).